Board Thread:Fun and Games/@comment-36570662-20190104000627/@comment-36570662-20190204210033

Wow, what a way to be puddle glum (Narnia anyone??), Ok I know you're sad, do you know what I had to deal with? I grew up in the Philipines all my memories were there. That was my home for the 13 years of my life. I learned to walk, to talk and to live there. Then I came back to the US. I lost EVERYTHING. My life, my family, my friends. I left my whole life behind, every single every single laughter. Everytime I ran threw the rice fields, barefooted and angry, running till I couldn't run no more. I would swim in the salty waters, laughing with my friends on how seaweed got stuck on my eyes and I fell off the mini fishing boat. Laughing at my how my friend ran into the palm tree. Crying because my dog died. Laughing and running in the sloppy mud as the rain poured against my head and skin, how I and my friends laughed and played in the rain rejoicing on how it came. Or how we laughed and screamed from the cold water, as we climbed into our 9-foot water take to clean it out. All that stuff was gone from my life and I can never get it back. So I know what your feeling, but there is no cure. Do you know how many times I cried myself to sleep? Every night. Do you know how at random times of the day I broke down crying? every single day. Do you know how many times I said to my self " be strong, don't dwell on the past" every single time I cried? So I am sorry to say: you can't solve it. You just have to embrace it and go through with it. It is so hard. SO HARD. I know how hard it is, trust me. But you just have to go through and "Bear the flame"  Leaving was the hardest part of my life, I still don't have many friends, and I have been used because I am the "cool exotic toy from another world!!" So, just live out your final times with your friends. It hurts,unimaginabley. But you just have to go through with it. I am so sorry that you have to do it. I know when I go to college that I will have to do it all over again aswell. I hoped this helped a little. And If you need a joke or a friend, I am willing to give advice and listen.